My Thoughts

the kush is being rolled an the blunt get lite /
as i sit at a computer an i type this shit /
so much shit be on my mind but i dont let it phase me /
kuz if my thoughts get the best of me i'll go crazy /
born in '89 but i was raised of the '90's /
product of my enviorment but i dont let it define me /
did alot of battling back then jus tryne shine see /
& im in south side jamaica queens if u tryna find me /
but ima pot head till i die please belee dat /
an u aint neva gotta ask kuz im always where the weed at /
or u cant catch me outta tha booth killin a cypha /
but plz do get ya decoder ring for these last bars to decypha /
on the ground floor but im takin off like a rocket see /
mama named me phil but tha streest call me philosophy /
an when i hit a booth i drop this science logically /
so i got 1 question for world who's stoppin me /

My 1st offfical weed charge

ok...today i got a hit with a very weak ass weed posession i laughed at it..but its real serious....an tha worst part of it is that i got set up bya nigga from my borough like this nigga fuck with niggaz in my family hard...an he set me an my niggaz up on some nonsence...but this jus lets me know i cant even trust niggaz from my borough but......ima be a model citizen pay this fine an if needed go to court....but like i try an give niggaz from n.y a good name u feel me an like after shit 2day i relized....jus kuz u fuck with my fam dont mean i fux with you......personally an like tha part that fucked me up was that i got lil kuzina that llook up to me an like i can look them in they face an say dont smoke o drink if they see me doin it...like my lil kuzin found out told his homie......that im some type of weed sellin dealer.....an he said ia be like him when im 2blo0 an like i had to explain this to him an like its hard for me to know that my lil kuzin thinks im some type of drug dealer.....an i tell him im not but tha evidence dont kame me look klean...i got weed in my house an on me at all times....but i teach my lil kuzin right from wrong an still....this jus makes me wanna quit drinkin an smokin even more kuz i know he look up to me an i would hate for him to get i n trouble i n tha future kuz of tha shit he see's me do now

blog sum up-watch who u fuck with an watch wat u do kuz u neva know who watchin

Transition

u cant help wat u do or who u fall for....thats life-Phillip D.
all tha old things that used to have me so content....are some of tha things i hate now....but i wont forget that they made me laugh or kry in certin enviorments change is good....an is embraced.....shit like my sega....my sega used to be my bitch i played that shit for days on end.....but now....i barely touch tha hoe....i got a wii an its like my sega neva came ointo tha piicture..but i see it everyday.....that like life in a way.....how we all go from 1 thing to another in a sence of growin up....an along with material things ive grown in other areas like relationship wise....im proud to say i aint fuckin with them hoes no mo....ive been in a very emotional relation with a older woman for montha now....an like we click at times we dont an we bump heads but at other times.......she brings out a suttle side of me that seem 1 an fully content with his surroundings an like when u transition from hoes to a real woman u get a...well i got a self accomplished moment but....its things about me that havent grown up yet....like my natural addiction to smokin weed an my new hobby to drink 4 loko's ppl tell me to stop an i say some stupid dhit back but in all reality....when it comes time for me to stop drinkin an smokin i will....everything cant change over night cheris tha lil things about ya self so u make ya self look better in tha bigger picture

in my mind vol.3 (success or self respect)

with success comes sepration of others....when u stand out from tha heard an show domince tha rest of tha pack either joins in your movement or disrespects ur choice....an thats when the hate begins

tha side effects of success have been tha same no matter when or where in history....success is something everybody wants but is a gift not everybody gets an ppl will do anything for a lil success no matter what kind weither its for the right or wrong reasons....ive seen many of ppl sell there self respect for a lil reconition thats didnt last that long an then they have to live with that fact that they gave up there self respect for there version of success.....ide never comprise my morals for success kuz to me...if i didnt bust my ass for my accomplishment they dont mean shit to me...nothing worth havin comes easy....(words from any gernaric parent)...but tha side effects of success are a want not a need....bein hated by alot an loved by a few is tha life ppl want ppl knoin ya name before ya face an givin fake love but honestly i want fame for tha money an shit.....i wanna be able to have tha money to smoke my weed an buy all tha bull shit in tha mall i want...an i have to be successful to do that kuz workin a 9 to 5 aint in my kards....i refuse to get a day job when i kan make a undisclosed amount of money makin musik or bein a actor thats y i hate when ppl say u dont have to bounce a ball of know how to rhyme to be something shit in my eyes if ur good at hoopin do that wat i look like 6'3 with good athltic qualties flippin burgers....FOH ima be famous.....but i wont sell my soul for it ima be me an make sure i neva let tha success get to my head thats tha main reason niggaz do dumb shit now...but i will move out tha hood (ima visit tho) ima stop takin tha bus an trian (ima get a very expensive car) an ima live like a rich person would but while im spendin my money im not gonna let it represent tha person who i really am i had rich dreams back when i was broke but my self respect is priceless.....but if i jumped off subject MORAL OF THIS BLOG self respect is not to be traded like a trading card....kuz at the end of tha day thats all you you have

in my mind vol.2 (relationships)

no relationship is perfect......kuz if it is....its destined to fail
relationships are esay to get in but hard to keep 2geather...they are alwats a constint work in progress even to ya last years...kuz like yall age tha both of yall are constintly growin....no matter wat kind of relationship....but tha worst kind of relationsships ive seen are long distint 1'sfor tha fact tha u cant always be with your parnter an trust is tha most important factort of all...but most ppl look at long didtant relationships as stupid but...in others eyes...if ur really feelin that person no amout of space can keep yall from bein togeather....tha only thing that i hate about relationships is how every lil thing matters....kuz sometimes its tha lil things that bring yall togeather an they can break yall up....also i HATE when u tryna an change ya mate...u shouldnt try an change them for that fact that its was fine when u 1st meet them an to later try an change them is a shame...its like u dont like tha person who you started off with.....also this is something all ppl need to relize...dont say i love you all the time kuz tha more u say something tha less value its has....but in tha end of this blog always remember relationships are 50/50 u have to give in order to recive....an remember sex cant cure everything dont love tha things a person does for u....love tha person

in my mind vol.1

i am 20 years into my life an i feel that everything i have done before now means nothing....if i look at my list of accomplishments they are basic.....anybody can do some of the shit ive accomplished.....an for everything that im trying to do in my life now seems like a fantisy bekuz of tha possibility factor.....everybody wants to be a rapper these days an truely to me tha artform of bein a real rapper is losing its value in todays society...kuz all these rappers from atlanta honestly are doin more damage than helping...an i hate when ppl say this is jus hip hop evolving i see no evolution in waka flocka's musik....an the few rappers from atlanta that are great an have changed tha game....but when u look at all the trash in tha long run tha negative out weigh's tha positive but atlanta isnt tha only place producing wack rappers its jus that its like everybody there gets a chance to shine....an when that happens tha musik heads hear this type of rap called "furureristic musik" an there perception gets changed....kuz rap aint all about tha word swag....its used to be about metaphors with tha comparison factor using like an as but now.....i see that dyin an im not sayin i can bring tha game back thats not my mission...all ima goin to try an accomplish is is makin sure i solidify my place in hip hop as a good musician kuz ppl jus stop at tha rhyming...i didnt i play guitar tha drums im learnin to play tha sax an on more tha 1 occasion have one freesyle battles due to tha fact i keep myself goin music wise....kuz its not jus my dream to be a good rapper but i wanna be a great musician an hopefully in todays rap society...i think thats enough

The Creation Of A Maniak

To justify tha actions of my past failure an future glorys 1st u must know wat i have been thru wat i have accomplished an wat i have faild at.....so let this story begin. My name is Phillip Jr. but i like being called phil i am tha child of Phillip an Kim...both my parents were born in tha city of new york my momz was born in The Bronx an my pops was born in brooklyn long story short....in 1984 they moved to queens an meet (this aint they blog) then 5 years later..a child (me) was born on august 28th at 7:36 am in jamaica hospital from the time of my mother gettin prego with me till this very day....my grandmother (my moms mom) has hated me....an to be born in a world with hate...u grow to hate things your self but on the other hand my dads mom (my bestest an only grandmother) sallye loved me from hearing about her new grand baby.....well when i was i was pretty much a regular baby....i shitted an ate...loved tha ninja turtles an bart simpson an when my mommy would go to sleep....i would wake up an wait for my dad to come home.....as a child tho i taught myself how to pee an my 1st words werent mom an dad....they were phil an kim.....like any kid...i have a childhood scar i was burned with EXTREEEEEEEEMLY HOT-TA water resulting in a 3rd degree burn that resulted in then having to give me a skin graph.....but now im good....in between 2 an 12....aint shit in my life happen...that was regular but when i turned 12....thats when shit started fuckin up....my momz kicked me out of her house an i was told to go stay with my pops i didnt have a problem with that kuz i got to stay in tha city while she left an went to savannah ga.....but stayin with my pops helped me relize that....jus kuz u stay with a parent dont me they will love u....me an my farther now have a relationship where....we farther an son but thats it an from 12 to 15 i was straight......but when i turned 15 my grandma sallye died thats really fucked me up an thats when i started drinkin lean an smokin weed hard thats shit fucked me up for a while i was anti social as shit...which means i dont have that many friends then acouple months after she died i finally got over it an got my life back on track.......an got back into makin musik....but that was short lived kuz 1 of my homies got locked up 4 months later an tha fucked shit up (free ronald) but...i went to high skool an during my senior year....2 very important ppl died to me my grand dad (my dads farther) an my great grandmother(mom grandma) with these ppl dying in my life....i almost didnt wanna go on....but i did graduated high skool an my only realh claim to fame is doin some college classes an makin a twitter....but i strive to be a musician thats the only thing i want out of life....beside a son i dont wanna go on a indept look on my life but know....ive been thru more shit in my 20 years of living that most ppl have never.....an with me see'n shit like that it alters ur thoughts an makes u 2nd guess wat life really means sometimes but.....also im in a happy relationship with my lady kandice (i loves that chick) an this is my life till now.........im 20 workin at a job thats decent i have a girlfriend no kids.....i smoke alotta weed an drink a lil bitta syrup ima p.s I LOVE TITTIES to death.......i love them more that i do breathing but.....stay tuned pholks more to come