in my mind vol.1

i am 20 years into my life an i feel that everything i have done before now means nothing....if i look at my list of accomplishments they are basic.....anybody can do some of the shit ive accomplished.....an for everything that im trying to do in my life now seems like a fantisy bekuz of tha possibility factor.....everybody wants to be a rapper these days an truely to me tha artform of bein a real rapper is losing its value in todays society...kuz all these rappers from atlanta honestly are doin more damage than helping...an i hate when ppl say this is jus hip hop evolving i see no evolution in waka flocka's musik....an the few rappers from atlanta that are great an have changed tha game....but when u look at all the trash in tha long run tha negative out weigh's tha positive but atlanta isnt tha only place producing wack rappers its jus that its like everybody there gets a chance to shine....an when that happens tha musik heads hear this type of rap called "furureristic musik" an there perception gets changed....kuz rap aint all about tha word swag....its used to be about metaphors with tha comparison factor using like an as but now.....i see that dyin an im not sayin i can bring tha game back thats not my mission...all ima goin to try an accomplish is is makin sure i solidify my place in hip hop as a good musician kuz ppl jus stop at tha rhyming...i didnt i play guitar tha drums im learnin to play tha sax an on more tha 1 occasion have one freesyle battles due to tha fact i keep myself goin music wise....kuz its not jus my dream to be a good rapper but i wanna be a great musician an hopefully in todays rap society...i think thats enough

The Creation Of A Maniak

To justify tha actions of my past failure an future glorys 1st u must know wat i have been thru wat i have accomplished an wat i have faild at.....so let this story begin. My name is Phillip Jr. but i like being called phil i am tha child of Phillip an Kim...both my parents were born in tha city of new york my momz was born in The Bronx an my pops was born in brooklyn long story short....in 1984 they moved to queens an meet (this aint they blog) then 5 years later..a child (me) was born on august 28th at 7:36 am in jamaica hospital from the time of my mother gettin prego with me till this very day....my grandmother (my moms mom) has hated me....an to be born in a world with hate...u grow to hate things your self but on the other hand my dads mom (my bestest an only grandmother) sallye loved me from hearing about her new grand baby.....well when i was i was pretty much a regular baby....i shitted an ate...loved tha ninja turtles an bart simpson an when my mommy would go to sleep....i would wake up an wait for my dad to come home.....as a child tho i taught myself how to pee an my 1st words werent mom an dad....they were phil an kim.....like any kid...i have a childhood scar i was burned with EXTREEEEEEEEMLY HOT-TA water resulting in a 3rd degree burn that resulted in then having to give me a skin graph.....but now im good....in between 2 an 12....aint shit in my life happen...that was regular but when i turned 12....thats when shit started fuckin up....my momz kicked me out of her house an i was told to go stay with my pops i didnt have a problem with that kuz i got to stay in tha city while she left an went to savannah ga.....but stayin with my pops helped me relize that....jus kuz u stay with a parent dont me they will love u....me an my farther now have a relationship where....we farther an son but thats it an from 12 to 15 i was straight......but when i turned 15 my grandma sallye died thats really fucked me up an thats when i started drinkin lean an smokin weed hard thats shit fucked me up for a while i was anti social as shit...which means i dont have that many friends then acouple months after she died i finally got over it an got my life back on track.......an got back into makin musik....but that was short lived kuz 1 of my homies got locked up 4 months later an tha fucked shit up (free ronald) but...i went to high skool an during my senior year....2 very important ppl died to me my grand dad (my dads farther) an my great grandmother(mom grandma) with these ppl dying in my life....i almost didnt wanna go on....but i did graduated high skool an my only realh claim to fame is doin some college classes an makin a twitter....but i strive to be a musician thats the only thing i want out of life....beside a son i dont wanna go on a indept look on my life but know....ive been thru more shit in my 20 years of living that most ppl have never.....an with me see'n shit like that it alters ur thoughts an makes u 2nd guess wat life really means sometimes but.....also im in a happy relationship with my lady kandice (i loves that chick) an this is my life till now.........im 20 workin at a job thats decent i have a girlfriend no kids.....i smoke alotta weed an drink a lil bitta syrup ima p.s I LOVE TITTIES to death.......i love them more that i do breathing but.....stay tuned pholks more to come